the bitchy family

i remember i used to blog about this.
how much i dislike my father's side relatives.
how much i loathe attending gatherings.

how insulted i was.
when my uncle asked why i wore a different colour school uniform.
sis & bro - bpghs, me? chr.
how a psle score of 240 was not good enough and i'll end up dumping shit and rubbish for people.
or how the 60-70 mark range is only for stupid people like me.

and they have to assume.

they have to tell stories among themselves.
ever since i quitted ntu.
i never tell them anything,
nobody ask either.

i wonder.

how did the i quitted ntu cos i think earning money is more impt came about..

i hope it didnt come from my dad.

im not that stupid.
if i really wanted money.
i would have complete the degree.
graduate.
get a full time job.

i didnt quit uni cos i wanna earn $.
and NO,
i didnt feel that money is more important than a degree now.

and NO.
im not obsessed with materialistic goods.

those hearsay.
i wonder how it emerged.

and my aunt calling me and telling me that tattoo-ing is LOW CLASS and for the ah lians.
and its WRONG.
just like boys shouldnt get their ears pierced.
im still trying to understand.
i told her shes stereotyping,
but she insisted she isnt.
fine,
as much as i understand shes upset.

but why,
do i have to make these adults happy at the expense of my own happiness?

just like isa baby.
she never likes my tattoos.
yes she probably thinks its really for ah lians.
but she never tell me its WRONG.

and now you want to preach and guide me.
telling me i will regret it one day.
telling me i wont know how to explain to my kids in the future.

i really beg to differ.

maybe she'd forgotten my dad smoke.
i could've pick up smoking,
but it never occur to them why i didn't.

im old enough to make my own decisions.
and i can differentiate whats right / wrong.
but i have enough of all these bitching acts.

when i have to hear from my mum how people bitch about her in the company.
no doubt maybe my mum did deserve it.
but what makes u any different from her?
ure once her FAMILY, once her friend too.

all this acting high class,
morally ethical,
or whatever shit.
please dont come and tell me all these.

its cos we're FAMILY,
which is why we bear with the mistakes.
i just dont like it.

when you all spread stories,
it becomes 'its all out of concern'
adults are always right,
they know best.
really dont give me this shit.

if its really out of concern.
why didnt i receive any calls / texts to clarify with me what happen?

self assuming i quit school cos i wanna earn money.
self assuming this and that.
but nobody bother asking.

i know u called out of concern.
but its the contents that really irks me.

and if its really about right & wrong.
and i'll set a wrong example for my kids.

just think.