fathers day

oh.
and 1 year ago,
on fathers day itself.
i went sunshine plaza for dimsum too.

where we met the crazy auntie.
where i stopped heading to sunshine plaza for quite awhile..

i remembered once we had a nasty quarrel.
him telling me how much he wanted to go sunshine plaza for dimsum,
but cos of me he don't..
and how he wants to go all the places we used to go,
and i didn't want....

how we stopped listening to lifehouse.
and i remembered he brought me to the lifehouse concert.
and how i deleted those english songs he liked from my hp.
how we stopped heading to ecp, frog porridge..
how i stopped texting him goodnight when i sleep,
how i stopped texting good morning the first thing i wake up,
how i stopped saying i love you / i miss you...
how i / we stopped doing things we use to do together.
all cos of me, probably.

or how i wished so badly to get out of the bloody spare tyre title given by her..

and when i finally decided its ok.
to go to the places we used to go,
to create new memories...

and the paranoid me just have to doubt him again.

but i guess this is my way of loving him.
i love him, but im afraid of suffering another heartache.
but cos i love him,
so much so that,
i just wanna be with him no matter what.

owells,
just one of those insecure nights.

tmr i'll wake up.
and be a bitch to him again,
forever.
haha.
cant help it.

gotta move forward.

must be pms.
MUST BE.

love how ps man is getting draggy.
but how the main lead still wish to be with the female lead no matter what.
love taiwan dramas,
love those parts when misunderstandings are solved.
hahahaha,