that fucking cui studio shoot of us.

hahaha.

 

national day!

LOVE MY BLING BLING TOP FROM ASOS.

damn chio & i loveeee it!

i think asos stuff are really too pricey for their material.

owells~~~

and yes, something random.

but i lost my gian-ness for runwaydreamz liao.

im a fickle minded bitch, as always.

 

we headed to 2 day 1 night for korean BBQ.

it was SO AWESOME.

all the meat!!!!!!!

there're fucking alot of meat.

and it was so so so so so fucking nice.

im glad mdk was there.

i don't really dare to do dry steamboat.

if u get what i mean.

i skipped seoul garden, and any marina bay steamboat outings.

cos there was once i was at marina bay,

fucking oil splashed into my eyes.

and since then, i stopped any bbq or dry steamboat.

if i really had to go,

one of my friend will peng for me.

and i'll stand away from the murderer as far as possible.

so yea, xin fu is me.

i have cy & mdk cooking food for me.

zhen hao ^^

 

while waiting outside...

 

i think i really have a love hate relationship with mdk.

not gonna elaborate further why i hate him.

but just,

haven't been feeling any much happier when he isn't around lately.

mehhh.

sometimes i really feel,

he really won't even know (or care) if i EVER cheat on him.

great.

wells, and it's pretty ironic when someone i don't really like talking to tries to cheer me up.

it's weird isn't it.

i feel guilty bitching about ... behind ... back,

and ... tried cheering me up.

it makes me so guilty.

but.

i still hate.

i know too much about ... i really can't make myself to like them or be friends.

i'm just pretty unhappy these few days.

i really hope it's cos of pms since my menses is gonna come anytime soon.

the feeling of being made used.

i think i make myself so clear that i can't be bothered anymore.

isn't it obvious?

when i tried to change topic when u start to talk about him.

or when i just ignore things u said about him.

ISN'T IT NOT OBVIOUS ENOUGH?

i dont know.

i just don't wanna be made used anymore with regards to him.

sometimes im just thankful for people being there for me.

listening to me rant and kaobei and be a bitch.

and still love me.

ALTHOUGH I THINK FERM IS SICK OF HEARING ME WHINE ABOUT THE SAME OLD SHIT.

hahaha (biatchface)

aiight, i didn't meet my agenda of clearing my online assignments today :(

sigh....

but it's ok.

i launched today.

which means im free the whole day tmr to clear my assignments!

even better.

i have to say, having racks at fep now really eats up my time.

im so busy i really feel like i can die. :(