15.8

 

friday.

megagmie's skirt! :)

got it in this colour and the blue.

fucking chio la.

everyone compliment me when i wore it.

remember to get it when it's launched! :)

 

fermelle's bday last last sat!

^^

 

beth's bday with cy.

 

this amazing guy managed to breakdance ASLEEP.

hahahaa.

 

with the bday girl!

so i was supposed to drag her to zouk with me.

and her bestf & gf will appear 12 on the dot!!

 

nice dilys!

she planned beth's bday with me.

and dragged beth to zouk.

yay.

 

epic moment of the night.

ahahahaha.

**

yesterday!

caught crazy stupid love with them.

and wanted to drink.

so we head to #5.

kanna reject cos we ain't 25.

then ice cold beer. 

and rejected again -.-

ok la, i dressed until very sloppy.

that's why the minute they saw me.

all said 

'how old are you all?'

-.-

 

I STILL LOOK YOUNG.

YAY.

 

beth with cy~

the lighting was fantastic!

drank moscato and red wine.

and i sang the way home~~~

 

lantern festival!

im always unhappy on this day.

i dunno, guess cos i have many expectations.

when i hear stories of what he does for other girls.

i just expect the same for me too.

but it was always different.

cos he'll have dinners, dinners, dinners, work.

so every year, on this day, im always crying.

lol.

and i just expect the same thing every year.

seriously, why i sound so incoherent.

today not cos of the expectations anyway. 

just the accumulated stuff i guess.

im so tired of crying.

and him not bothering at all.

not bothering to come and pacify.

not bothering to understand why am i upset in the first place.

and i always get sarcastic replies.

'i think you forgotten something'

i feel dumb.

knowing how much i know he can hurt,

yet giving him all the power to hurt.

he just, don't get it.

i don't see myself in the future with him anymore.

i feel he doesn't really wish to have someone like me.

and i don't know if im the right one for him.

i think i always have to be ok with every passerby in his life.

and if im not ok, its also none of his business.

im just. very upset.

like how im always the one heading to his place every quarrels.

how im always the one apologizing first.

and how im always waiting for him to pacify me, but it never came.

he just didn't realize.

that he'd never bothered to apologize first in any quarrel.

whether or not it is his fault.

guys, they always have the capability to 'reason' things out and make it seem like we're creating a big fuss.

i am very easily pacified.

all u need to do is to appear in front of me.

or at the very least.

show that you care.

im so tired of initiating everything.

and im even more tired.

when i don't even get a text of concern.

this insignificance feeling im getting.

is wearing me out.

im just bloody upset.

that he can't even understand.

why am i upset.

and he thinks everything is my fault.

and worse,

he won't even know if i cheat on him.

this is how much he shows to me he doesn't care..

***

anyway, i know some people who are customers have been requesting to follow me on twitter.

i only approved a few, and i usually don't check twitter everyday.

but i just wanna say, please don't get offended or anything if i don't approve you.

my words get misunderstand very easily.

and the least you know me, the easier you will misunderstand my language and words.

i speak like a canon, i tweet like a whore.

it's definitely NOT something pleasant to read, and highly misleading.

people always tend to assume i talk about them when i don't.

and it's the ONLY ranting space i have for hwc.

so i tend to tweet alot of my woes with customers,

and after i tweet i forget about it.

but if i tweet about u, u definitely will remember.

so this is something i dowan to happen.

anyway, my twitter is solely for my private use.

so yup :)