healthy.

 

actually. im always insecure with the way i look.

hahahaha.

you all never know how much criticism i went through.

even from strangers.

so yea.

cheers to jaw surgery next year.

*punch fist in the air*

 

the only hkitty thing i got from Samantha Vega.

and Oscar, she loves my LV bagpack.

lol.

she asked for my permission to carry it and walk one round hong heng mansion.

so cute right.

i think the people at audrey's salon all love me.

andy even offered me whiskey the other time i went there.

and cooked maggie for me.

hahahaha.

im so blessed to be so loved. :)

 

167 again that day.

i remembered how i was waiting there.

and wx walked from dunno which bus stop, come and fetch me,

then walked back and took the same bus he came in.

funny uh, how my poor sense of direction always trouble people.

lol.

 

last friday.

the only decent photo we took.

i tried making myself drunk before heading in the dance floor.

and i ended up crying in wx arms.

and being ultra sober.

then i went home, feeling comforted.

by judo, by rubberben, by nicole, by fermelle, by weik.

all the awesome people i met this year.

but i head to bed in tears, and fear.

its nice to have a brother.

a brother who wakes up in the wee hours.

just to hug you and let you cry in his arms.

i love my brother so much.

can i marry someone like him, or my dad?

lol.

anyway, he said the next boyf i have.

needs to be taller than him, and stronger.

well, i think i need to be a nun already.

guys who are 181 and above, doesn't date me.

sad. :(

 

and the first, and the last.

thank you for everything though.

went jogging today.

i stopped exercising ever since napfa for j2 ended.

lol.

i swear jogging is more tiring than sex.

hahahaha.

but i need to burn the unnecessary fats in me.

and i need to be healthy.

too unhealthy already.

lastly,

thank you beth & jasmine.

although beth you cb you dont read my blog.

but i'll tweet you later.

thanks for being here.

at my lowest period.

thanks for EVERYTHING.

beth, thanks for the messages everyday.

thanks for the companionship every weekend.

thanks for going phuture with me everytime i ask you too.

thanks for all the morning messages.

i know you don't feel appreciated by me,

but trust me. i do.

just that i don't express myself that much to you as i do to jas.

but i love both of you equally. :)

qinaide, i need not say much.

thanks for coming back.

thanks for the call.

i love you my babygirls.

don't ever leave me ok?

xoxo,

eils.