infatuation.

i want you to fight for me,
out of your own will.
not cos of what my friends say.

i dont understand guys.
when i was with mdk, i put in my 100% and got hurt over and over again.
and when i decided not to put in my 100% anymore, he finally changed.
and i realized, it might just be too late.

i dunno.
im not 100% happy when im with him,
but im also not 100% happy without him.

blogging, cos a friend just confronted me.
like why am i still close friends with her ex.
wells, in the very first place.
he is my friend.
i knew him first.
and im not the one who intro-ed him to you,
neither am i the one hanged out as a mutual friend when both of you are dating.

you are my close friend, so is he.
i dont take sides, whoever needs me i'll just be there.

but why am i a slut then?
im not dating your ex.

it never pays to be nice.

most of my guy friends gf hate me.
cos i treat them overly nice in their point of view.

if you dont treat your normal guy friends as nice as i treat my guy friends,
it doesnt mean it wont happen.

i treat my friends, EXTREMELY nice.
even if i know for 1 day, i can also be damn nice.
be it guy / girl.
thats the way i am.

i can openly talk about sex with them.
but it doesnt mean i want to fuck them.

sucks right.
hahaha.

well, if a girl acts this close to my bf i'll also hate her and think she's a slut.

i can never stop people from judging me,
but i can always explain myself.

i dont mind being a float.
a platform for my friends to cure their heartache.

just dont deem me a slut.

i dont even understand whats my point of these kaobeis.

i dont have alot of close guy friends.
just that few that treats me well enough.
why cant their gf just treat me like their guy friend?
my chest is flat what, just treat me as a guy la.
LOL.

what's there to be jealous about. honestly.