Dingxuan.

in case you all don't already know,

im a big FAN of ding xuan. 

http://crunchycoconut.blogspot.com/

i wanted to post a picture of her, but i think it might look a lil wayyyy too psycho.

hahahaahah.

okay, but i love these 2 parts of her latest blog entry.

so much.

Please don't fall in love with me, I'm still very much in love with Jacky. I'm scared, I don't know what is it that I feel towards him anymore. It's been so long. A couple of times you brought me up there like how he did, and then I'll remind myself not to so I wouldn't fall too hard if you're gonna fuck me over. I've got nothing left when I lost him. I cannot go through it again. 

Since you've got nothing left, why not take a leap of faith. If I fuck you over, you're still gonna be left with  nothing. If you let me in, you either end up with nothing like how you started before you met me, or you'd end up with everything. Just because he wasn't there at your lowest point, it doesn't mean I wouldn't. I promise to bring you up there, and go down with you. You're so afraid to go down there again because you were alone when you were. But if you were to go down one day, you might see a hand. My hand.

 

 

 just look at the bold part AGAIN!

 

was telling my bbgs today,

how im afraid to fall in love again, and end up getting my heart break.

cos i haven't cry over a heart break for pretty long.

hmm, not say cry, but break down.

and qinaide said,

'if you do, it means you're still alive'

true uh.

hahaha.

but i tell you, if there's this guy who tells me the same thing dingxuan's bf told her.

wa, im gonna.

感动到死掉。