Insomnia

winebar last sat with the drunkard.
she's a happy drunk.
and she cant stop blaming me for making her lose her hp & wallet,
WHEN ITS NOT EVEN MY FAULT?!
anyway, epic night, memories stay.
happy ones (:
will blog more next time (:

thanks for everything though.
for the calls.
for understanding me well.
for saying things like 'don't cry la'
for always letting me point you my middle finger and scolding you 'fuck you!'

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supper-ed with smlj.

talked all sorts of stuff with her.

boys, relationships, dicks, sex, school, career, etc.

she made things, passable.

she asked me, she didn't know why i was so persistent.

actually, up till now, i didn't know why i made the decision too.

i think, i was just too guai lan.

HAHA.

actually, i used to be much stronger.

and actually, i didn't know i actually can survived till now.

maybe the past me would have tried killing myself.

i guess 2011 is the changing point for me.

lol.

anyway, don't you think fate is cruel?

u might meet the right people, but at the wrong timing.

not your significant other, but even friends.

im so tired, and i cant sleep.

BAH.

qinaide, can we go buy jco donuts tmr?

please please.

titanium is stuck inside my head.

i always love listening to that song when im in phuture.

haha.

till now, i still cant believe i stepped out of my comfort zone.

if i didnt, i might not have lose her as a friend either.

actually, i dont think i lost her.

perhaps, in the future, at the right timing, it'll all be better.

but now, im paranoid again.

smlj just reminded me she's gonna start work in june.

which means, less time for me, less time to hang out.

less time for everything.

i think, im not moving forward.

and im quite stuck in my shelter.

what if i reached 29, then i decided i'll not do business anymore and go and work for others?

i think i'll die right?

u know, i like the fact that my friends think im awesome.

they are the best confidence boost.

so yeah, thanks my babies!