omgwhyyyy

 

too adorable to not post this up.

and, isa baby quite pretty in these?

hahahahahaaa.

DON'T FLY TO THE MOON AH.

so was telling smlj my worries.

i have been too happy recently, i'm afraid.

like really afraid.

i guess, i was never happy for long in the past.

didn't have friends till i was in jc.

spent my growing up puberty phase crying everyday, being the outcase in school.

or even when i got attached, happy moments are always short lived.

it's like happiness became a luxury for me.

and im just so god damn afraid that this euphoria will be gone, soon.

like when someone treats me nice, i start to wonder, do i really deserve it?

do i even deserve to be happy at all?

and then i realize, i can't trust anymore.

i can't commit myself into another person,

i don't even dare to open up entirely.

and my over-thinking, sucks.

my paranoia and insecurity, sucks.

it becomes a phobia.