Retail Therapy

 

so while she happily goes out to meet her bf,

i also go meet my bf - dr cheng.

hahaha.

i now have pink rubberbands on my braces now!

i'm in a dilemma.

the ideal month to have my jaw surgery is actually june.

and i think it's not gonna be possible cos my teeth ain't shifting that fast >.<

if it's at july, i'll miss smlj's bday and she EMPHASIZED and WARNED me not to.

but come to think of it, she has a lot of friends and ppl in her life now, she won't need me.

if it's at august, i'll miss beth's, ferm's, lili's bday...

and i believe baby ferm will flip table and kill me.

hahaha.

if it's at sept, i'll miss the deadlines of eca & gbas.. fuck.

if it's at oct, I'LL MISS THE HOLIDAYS.

and i don't want to wait till next year for my surgery.

so teeth, please just bloody shift now.

shift with 200000km/h pleaseeeeee.

did i mention i went to dye my hair?

i love my hair. i love john.

nuff said.

hahaa.

and, i just wanna rant. cos i'm really disappointed.

the fact that you read my blog not cos you are concerned about my well being,

but just cos you need information to confirm your insecurities.

or that you accompanied me when i'm down not cos you really mean it.

or worst, your patience and understanding never last.

you are not the victim.

you are not the only one who felt left out or felt hurt at times.

have you, have you ever see me tweeting hurtful stuffs about you?

when you felt unappreciated, have you ever appreciated my presence before?

anyway, The Vow today.

and fuck, is channing tatum hot or what.

and the jeremy guy is cuteee too!

'I chose to stay with him for all the things he did right and not leave him for one thing that he did wrong'

totally understood.

retail therapy with baby ferm today.

and it was bloody good.

i'm not an Aldo member and i think my sister is really happy about it! ^^

new lingerie to make myself happy.

(wearing pretty lingerie makes me happy actually)

and more slutty dresses.

and me and fermelle were like

'WE CAN GO CLUBBING SOON ALREADY!!'

hahahaha

i love shopping with fermelle.

and i love how bimbo she is and she just listen to all my whines and still love me for who i am.

honestly, i love all my friends.

i want them to love me the same way i love them.

is it that hard?

and i'm just afraid one day i'll snap publicly.

it's just not something i want.

MEH.