so drunk. so so so drunk.

and shaun called, cos smlj went missing in bt panjang.

im just annoyed. fucking annoyed today.

because i was hurt, i can no longer trust.

i doubt almost every single thing.

i have issues, and it's up to you if you wanna accept me for who i am.

so dear future boyfriend, i'm emotionally scarred and i can never be secure.

so i'll need all the patience you have, all the love, care and concern.

i need you to be possessive so i feel loved.

i need love. i need affection. i need everything.

so that i'll feel important, so that i'll feel worthy.

mdk fucked my life up, and it sucks.

i just want someone who can hug me tight and tell me it's okay.

kiss me on the forehead and tell me it's okay.

and tell me he won't fuck my life up.

the times, you brought me up there.

but i'm just afraid you will fuck me like how he did and i'll be crushed.

i need x. i need awk. i need vic.

they understand me so well.

*****

did i honestly type all this shit when i was drunk?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

ok time for work.

i woke up feeling happy, i don't even know why i was so emo last night.

LOL.

i think smlj just brightened up my day as i wake up to her call.

honestly, she's a crazy drunk.