MEH

MEH.

just not the best day for me i guess.

it sucked in fact.

all the TLC i received was so short term.

kan.

and now.

i feel: 

 

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met a scumbag cab driver today.

i still feel fucking angry when i get reminded.

UGH ANNOYED.

then, plans changed last minute.

even more ANNOYED.

i don't like it when i became an option, and it was just not the right timing to break such news to me.

i gotta find my own plans, and not be a scumbag friend to my friends.

it's just not nice.

ok, at least the nice dinner and stoning together makes me tad happier.

till i got cancelled again.

GREAT.

make it worst, a cockroach climbed over my feet.

FUCKING GROSS.

i was just feeling better, ranting to fermelle about my sucky day.

then self consoling, then the cockroach ran past.

i just wanted to cry, or stomp my feet and scream.

or throw a bitch fit.

meh i dunno.

PISSED.

i feel i'm quite well balanced when it comes to communicating.

and i expect my friends or people around me to be too.

and i get motherfucking annoyed when they can't.

it's not their fault though.

but yeah, i'm just like this.

i think it's only fair i reply all messages one by one,

but not only reply that one important person then disregard the rest.

or at least, don't make it so obvious.

i just feel unfair.

at the end of the day, i can feel the change.

not that i don't want to share your happiness.

but if you got so angry the other time when you were alone at your lowest moment,

and you reacted so badly towards it.

then why is it not mutual?

i don't like to voice publicly that i'm fucking unhappy.

but i already told u i am.

and u just got to prove me right that he is there again.

i don't want to be remembered only when people have no one else to call.

and why im blogging is cos i dont want to spoil your date.

it's just today, i'm fucking unhappy.

and your insensitivity really amplifies all the negativity.

and u know i need to blog about it.

and tmr i'll forget about it.

so by the time u read this, don't get so affected.

i just had a bad day, be considerate to me.

it's not that i don't appreciate the nice things u do for me on normal days.

but it's just today.

MEH.

it's as though u are too happy to even care that i'm unhappy.

i guess i'm just glad that fermelle is very innocent and naive and bimb.

she cajoles me even when she's moody.

i'm fucking grateful for that.

and my niece.

she's in a good mood.

so she's fucking happy when she sees me.

she gives me the tightest warmest hug ever.

and she yells 'YIYI PEI WO WAN'

oh man, ok now i feel a hell lot better after ranting.

YES.