negativity.

 

was looking at nastygal email.

then i really wonder.

how do people even walk in the black wedges.

 

yesterday!

mambo-ed with my brother.

WELL, IM THE YOUNGER SISTER!!!!!

ALL HIS FRIEND THOUGHT IM THE OLDER ONE.

one of his friends even said 'so your 2nd daughter is how many months old already?'

FML. :(

please console me and just say its cos my brother looks young. meh.

 

he's kissing the mambo king!

i wonder if he should feel honoured or disgusted.

they're so sporty anyway!

the guy was drunk.

but i requested this photo.

and brother lee gladly obliged.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

i love my brother..

and clubbing with him, was surprisingly good.

its like one of my most fun club exp although its MAMBO!

i don't mambo anyway, but knn u see how his friends mambo.

i wanna learn lor. so dope.

hahaha.

so brother, can u bring me along the next trip please? ^^

i'll drink more and get high earlier!

hahahahaha.

 

and the kuehtutu choco chip friend of his, picked this out from the chips tray for me.

LOL.

funny right they all.

they're clever, smart, good looking.

and surprisingly not cocky at all.

wo likes.

haha.

 

today!

for the first time.

jealous nel is holding her sister's hand. :)

so cute right my nieces.

i love them so much.

aiight, anyway i had a bad day.

and sorry isa baby.

my patience to u today was practically 0.

not sure if you realized not anyway.

and now i feel very bad, so do forgive me. haha.

ok, my bad day.

it was horrible.

to beth, im not sure if u'll read this.

i wanted to whatsapp you, but i reckon this will be better.

i dowan to force a reply out of you, or worst, make you feel bad all over again.

i do admit i was disappointed when i heard your plans for the week.

but i was disappointed cos i thought we were be the one celebrating your bday for you.

cos i set aside weekends for you.

but i dunno if it's cos we didn't make an effort to make known to you that we are celebrating with you.

it's no doubt that once awhile i'll feel left out in your life, but it's really ok.

please don't feel bad or anything, i have high expectations for friends around me.

it's a flaw, but it's just in me.

i just didn't feel like talking much today, and i dowan to say harsh stuff to you cos im upset.

that's why i didnt reply much.

love you nonetheless <3

and to cheng, 

i want to take a break from this issue.

you know its not the first time that you chose not to reply my whatsapp or anything.

and you knew how much i hate it also.

it's not i don't want to understand.

but you talking to me ONLY cos you are after for an explanation.

it makes me feel being made used.

when i tell you i have things to tell you, you are the one to choose not to reply.

and when i have to explicitly tweet the thing i want to say out,

only then u bother to reply me.

isn't it a bit too late?

if we compare the situations separately, yes yours is more important.

much much more important.

then what about my feelings?

why are my feelings always being disregard when it comes to these?

i'll reply you, but definitely not now.

cos i don't want to feel made used again, it is what you're making me feel.

i don't want to show concern,

and the next day i face double ticks on whatsapp again,

making me feel like an idiot.

and because the closer we are, the more disappointed i will get.

its not 小题大做。

this is why im so upset over it. 

i'll just sleep it off.